let me play your favorite song,
i wanna see you bubble with joy
as the song caresses your soul
i can’t hold it anymore
i wanna hold you in my arms
feel your heart rush for me
babe am coming home
Pleasure
it’s all we wanted
the moment that make our blood chill
mind go berserk
its the sweetness that has no comparison
that tongue twisting feeling eyes filled with tears of joy
its the touch at the right place
that opens up the hidden nerves
a heart throbbing moment that leaves us breathless.
when you cant think and you let them take the pace
cause you are lost in there world
a whole new beginning that cant be traced by a map
the pleasure that only pleasure can define
its only in that state that you know life is sweet
its the pleasure we live for.
Live everyday.
keep put your house everyday like when you are expecting a visitor.
Dress up everyday like when you have that important event
Eat right everyday like it’s weeks before the big event
Love yourself everyday like that day you realized you are important after a break up
Treat your parents like how you will want your children to treat you
Be there for people like the way you will want them to be there for you
Pray to God and act right everyday like how you pray and act when you want him to sort you out
Be the person you pretend to be in front of your parents or the people you wouldn’t like the pack of shit you are.
Give your children the life you wished you had been given when you were their age
Celebrate your life everyday life you do on your birthday or anniversary
Hold your partner everyday like you would like them to hold you.
Spray yourself everyday like you do when you know you gonna sit beside your crash
Repent and go to church like you used to go when you decided you wanted to get right with God
Do exercises everyday like you did when you were motivated to get that new look
Be nice to people everyday like the way you are nice when you need there approval
Just live your life everyday like you advise people to or think they should live there lives.
24th Sept…,
I like what am seeing, land horizons covered with mist or is that fog(the thicker one)the one you can’t see like 100mtrs away. The day breaking out of its shell,the land clearing up again is 5.59am am in this tiny road where is shows Nrb 76.it’s a nice crying to see the way the light struggles to defeat the dark and eventually wins and now you can see the shrubs and the plain brown fields so quiet with no buildings only few shops then the plateau again (what is this area called?) and our driver is so freaking slow I can’t imagine arriving in the city past 8,it’s usually feels so disturbing when you get down with your eyes swollen and is all lit outside…
Sitting on this VIP seats i can clearly see how the road divides the Plains. It’s only because of the Nairobi 109 signs which often popping up or else this land kills your thinking of the city , it’s 6.30 and we still here crawling I can’t wait to set this guy who has become a big part of my life yet we have never met.
6.28 now machakos Junction the drivers radio hitting that song si uliniambia kwamba waja nami mwenzio nakungoja I guess now my Arady is awake waiting for that call swung am here I know he can’t wait to see me to prove what he sees in the photos. First times are usually so beautiful I wonder how ours will be hope it gives birth to more meetings right now am not ready to lose him.
Another breathe next to me.
If only I could have a shoulder now to put my head on.
An ear that would listen to me. A handto dry my tears and to hold me and give me that assurance that am not alone
I will build on to it so deeplylike I will never have it again
Because I know how it is to need just a heart beat next to yours.
Road signs
Lord teach how to behave as I wait for your will
Sometimes I feel am right with you and things are going right
Sometimes I feel like losing it all and I fall into sin again
Then I come back asking for forgiveness I know you are tired because you know i know the good and bad
Does my impatience or lack of signs delay your answer because you see am not ready
For how long more should I live this way, how many falls am yet to endure
It had been way too long since I started praying for this to end I am ready to move on God
Are we near or there is still along way to go.
Tell me so that I can brace myself for the period
Taking a day at a time has turned in to years still fighting the same battles and some are now worse
Am lost father show me the way out or atleast tell me why do I have to through all this
What is that you are preparing me for they said things don’t just happen
Is this a result or a preparation of something or some one am yet to become.
Show me the road signs this journey has been long
I don’t want to delay anymore because I fell and I had to patch the scar.
WHEN
When will this thing end,or when will it start
I have been patient enough true it all
Just to fetch away but it still vessels in
When it comes every thing shuts down
I find myself lost in pain and thoughts
Why do I have to go through all this
If it’s forgiveness for all i have done I asked
If it’s having the right attitude I did
What else am I needed to do how deep
For how long will I suffer and drown
In this loneliness and having no where to belong
If kills me softly i feel like a shell
So whole and beautiful outside but empty inside
No sense of direction no one to look up to
No one to count on just the heavy beat of my heart
Times i asked my self what is it that God
Is preparing me for that I have to go through all this
No cash no friends just debts and fake smiles
I just a plateau when I think of tomorrow
Is it me only or does anyone still carry the cross.
Music to my heart
Sat here on this leather couch and sang my soul a Beautiful song by Celine dion.saying my heart will go on.nothing will stop me from loving me.
Far across the distance I went to search for love not knowing I can love me.the space i created between me and myself was so huge I almost forgot who I was.
Near far wherever i am I will not stop loving this beautiful soul. Love is when I can love me unconditionally.
As the seat warms up with the warmth of my embrace it’s in this room I promise to love you always and all-time.
So our sun may set
Entry song
They heard me humming to my favourite tune
It was like an anthem I could never give tired of it
Sometimes I would just find my self in it without knowing what time it started
So one of them just decided to ask why I love that song that much
I just looked at her and sell I can is the lurid of that song
So deeply engraved in my heart that everyone could just see
I thought of why I loved that sing so much and could find an exact answer
I just sang it and she knew how much am in love with it.
It crawled in to my lips whenever am sad or lonely or confused and I could find that smile back again.
It’s a song that is titled oh Jesus you want me to love show me how to do it so I can also be embraced in your warmth.
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